It amazes me how alike my oldest & I are. We can’t seem to manage a 45min trip to volleyball with out bickering. This seems to go a generation back. The way I talked to my mom as a teenager was disgusting. I should have had a permanent bar of soap in my mouth. Probably locked in my room for my entire life. I’m not sure which is worse a kid with zero rules or one with more than you can count. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’ve never really apologized to my mother for all the chaos I have caused her during the last 33years of life but I am sorry if you’re reading this. You deserved so much more than I gave you. ❤️ I love you mom, & I’m sorry.

Maybe one day Kaylei will feel the same way… I hope she’s younger than 33. 🙊 It’s hard to see when she starts being disrespectful. There is a fine line when it comes to crossing boundaries. One unfortunately, I didn’t make soon enough. I made some poor decisions as a teenager. Parenting at 19 alone was not easy and I was terrible at it. I was trying to balance being a mom, a dad, a daughter, friend, student and at one point an employee of 3 different business’. I failed miserably. Honestly at all the above.

She is still my girl and always will be. I’m currently sitting quietly while she continues to work her butt off as an athlete. K’s league coach says she suffers from post coach denial, or something. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m sure it’s true. She has made each school team she had tried out for but has always fallen short of the opportunity to play. Sucks as a parent to watch. Kaylei has conquered some pretty cool things during the past two years & she is truly blooming. I love to see her confidence and passion for both her love of volleyball and basketball come back! ❤️ She is way more athletic than I ever was!

More to come on this topic.